I lost my best friend!

I lost my best friend!

You don't love me
You don't care about me
You say you do, but
Your actions say otherwise

I've made my mistakes
I've taken responsiblity for them
I have looked at my faults
(I did not like what I saw)
I am working on correcting them

You have used my mistakes
to excuse your own
You think you have me on a string
But, today I am letting it go

You were my very best friend
You were my whole world
You were all I wanted
You were all I needed

You enjoyed watching me stumble
You enjoyed watching me fall
You took pleasure in my pain
You made sure I felt small

You took my heart
You tore it all to pieces
And when that wasn't enough
You placed the pieces in a grinder

You laughed as you turned the handle
You giggled as you watched
The leftovers fall to the floor and
The blood run past your feet

You say you want to be friends
But treat me like your play toy
But, I no longer will play your game
I am not here for your entertainment

To say I will not miss you will be a lie
But, the you I miss does not exist anymore
I do not know where she went
I no longer want to know

Do not blame me for your mistakes
You made those choices on your own
For I know what I did wrong
And I blame no one but me

I am stronger now
Than I was not long ago
I am moving on
I am getting over you

I lost my best friend today
I will, of course, mourn that loss
But only for a day or two
I have better things to do

Three times I fell

Three times I fell

Three times I have fallen
Since the day we met
They were never in my plans
They were never in my sight
But each stumble was
More shocking than the last
And each time
Changed my life forever

The first time I fell
I fell in love
The way you looked at me
The way you touched me
The way if felt when we were close
I had no choice
It may have been wrong
But it felt so right

The second time I fell
I fell apart
When you found comfort
In anothers arms
When he became the one
You dreamed about
I closed my eyes because
I just wanted to lay down and die

The third time I fell
Scared me more than before
Unlike the first two
I never saw this one coming
I did not expect it
I never dreamed it would happen
I still cannot believe it
I fell out of love with you

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Still here.

I am still here. I haven't had a lot of time to post lately. I was one of the ones who ran away from Rita. My house made it throught without a scratch, but I was without electricity for a week. We had to trash everything in the fridge and freezer. I am still trying to get caught back up. My comedy is coming along great. I am doing a showcase show on November 18th and I have been going to open mics on Mondays. I really feel that I am going to see some real progress in that real soon. Gotta run, I will be yappin at ya later.

Love In Christ,
Wayne Havens

What!?!

I was just listening to a radio talk show called "Show of Faith". It has two hosts, one a Christian minister and the other a Jewish Rabbi. The topic of discussion was the recent ruling by a judge stating that the phrase in the Pledge of Allegiance "under God" is unconstitutional. I was surprised when both of the hosts seemed to take a position that we need to be more tolerant of how these two words might offend those who do not believe God.
I have a friend whose father is a pastor. The church where he pastors has a fellowship dinner on certain Wednesdays. The Red Cross called him and asked if his church would like to feed 100 people displaced by hurricane Katrina....On the condition that they not talk about Jesus!In a matter of a couple of days we are told the name of God is unconstitutional and some one asking a church for help and telling them they cannot talk about God.
If anyone thinks it is a good idea to take God out of every aspect of out society should probably consult the mayor of Sodom. Should we remove the name of God from our money and pledge simply because some do not believe in His existence? Where will this lead to? Should we have the constitution of the United States declared unconstitutional? It does have several references to God in its wording.
But, I digress. Just look at all the good brought to our public schools since prayer was taken away. We have been given such awesome gifts as metal detectors, drug dogs, and Kevlar vests for our teachers. Yes, the benefits are many when you remove God from a society. We are just now getting to enjoy the rewards of a generation who grew up without God. Our children can no longer walk to school by themselves, nor are they able to stroll through our nation’s public parks and malls. Countless turn up missing, raped and murdered each year. But, please, whatever you do, do not bow your head and pray for them.
Since the removal of public prayer in school the landmark decision of Roe vs. Wade has also made a significant impact on our society. Every year 4.5 million babies are conceived in this country and thanks to a woman's right to choose 1.5 million of those babies are aborted. Think about that for just a minute, 1 out of every 3 babies is aborted every year. Isn't there something very disturbing about that fact?

Love In Christ,
Wayne Havens

What a country!!!!

It is absolutly amazing the outpouring of kindness and support this country has given those devastated by hurricane Katrina. This event proves wrong the anti-american retoric that we are a self-absorbed nation, whose only care is the next dollar in our bank account. Without even blinking an eye, we started the massive response machine that has feed, clothes and housed many thousands who have lost everything. Within hours after the storm had passed hundreds of volunteers and trucks loaded with supplies was headed to the region. The response from the private secter was unprecedented. Thousands have volunteered since and thousand more will volunteer in the coming months. We reached deep into our pockets and have to date donated 500 million dollars to the Red Cross alone. While a tragedy like this can bring out the worst in humanity, it also brings out the very best. We did not wait for outside help, we helped ourselves. We saw the devastation, the loss, and the faces of the children and had compassion. Many cities have offered to assist in helping the survivors rebuild their lives for an indefinent period of time.
To the critics: The next time you want to critisize my country or fellow citizens take a look at the American spirit and compassion that arose once again when needed. If you want to critisize the response to the hurricane, I say "If you can do a better job, then shut up and do it".
We live in the greatest country in the world, and I thank God everyday for allowing me to live here. GOD BLESS AMERICA

Love In Christ,
Wayne Havens

Annoying habits.

I work as a shop foreman at an auto repair facility. The way people act when they come in for a car repair is flabbergasting to me. I am getting really tired of the people who tell me they are on a "fixed income". I had one just the other day. An elderly lady came in needed to get her brakes fixed. She waited until her brakes where grinding for a couple of weeks before coming in and letting me look at it. When she was given the estimate she stated they we need to understand that she is on a "fixed income". Like that is going to change what it is going to take to fix her car. I hate to tell you, but most of us live on a "fixed income". I am paid salary so my paycheck is the same every week, thus it is "fixed". I understand not having enough money to pay for it right now, but to tell me you are on a "fixed income" and then just stare at me like I am supposed to bring the price down just baffles me. I never here anyone argue over prices at McDonald's or Walmart. I apologize, but I am not only here to fix your car, I have to make a profit while I do that. Otherwise, what would be to point of being in business.

Love In Christ,
Wayne Havens

Been A While!!

Wow,
I just noticed that is has been a long time since I have added another bit to my blog. I have been rather busy lately. I am getting ready to do a show at my local VA hospital this next Sunday. Several comics and I, who are also veterans, will be doing the show for free. Not a problem since the soldiers have risked and lost so much for us.
I am also at this moment waiting on an email to let me know if I have gotten a corporate gig in Dallas next January. It is for a woman's conference. One of the directors contacted me and wanted to know if I would be interested in doing a show for them on the first night of the conference. The committee is in a meeting right now to decide who the entertainment will be. I have been praying all day long.

Love In Christ,
Wayne Havens

Notes from the Conference.

I got back from the conference on Thursday. It was an huge success. I got to meet and talk with the best in Christian comedy. The workshops were extremely informative. I was encouraged and happy to realize that I am not alone on my journey.
One of the workshops was conducted by Kenn Kington. He spoke of making things happen for yourself and how being tenacious will get you to the next level. I also took a comedy writing class from John Branyan. That has already helped my writing immensely.
I was privileged meet and talk with Phil Visher, creator of Veggie Tales. He is an extremely intelligent and creative individual. Brad Stine also gave a talk on the direction of Christian comedy in today's world. Listening to him has really got me pumped up about taking my comedy in the direction I have been dreaming of.
Probably the best part of the conference was the friendships that I made while there. I will defiantly be back next year.

Love In Christ,
Wayne Havens